Ever just wish you wouldn’t wake up in the morning. I go to bed at night quite often just wishing I’d have a heart attack or something and just not wake up.
I know my life isn’t as bad as others but it doesn’t change how sad and alone I feel.
My son and daughter-in-law have eliminated me from their life and this includes my grandchildren. They blame me and I don’t say that I’m not partially to blame but I think they really just don’t know who I am or they wouldn’t think the things they think of me.
And I just keep thinking that my son should know better, know me better. But it doesn’t matter because they just don’t want me in their lives. And it’s left me so broken and lost. I miss my son and hearing about his days. I miss the relationship I used to have with my daughter-in-law. I miss my grandchildren. I miss being part of their family.
So I just wish I could go to sleep and not wake up again.