I know I will get judged on it. But I am already doing it to myself anyhow.
Last week I had met someone at work and my car broke down so this guy drove me home. He needed to use the phone because his cell died so I invited him in. I called my husband first to tell him.
We just sat downstairs and chatted for over an hour. Suddenly he kissed me. And I did kiss him back. It was for a second but still happened. After that I said no. He gave me a long thing about wanting something with me but I said no and told him to leave.
He has sent me a text message to tell me how much he wants to be with me. I did not answer yet. I said I am married. I don’t have anything else to add.
I felt so guilty about the kiss. My husband was home and asleep during this entire time (I thought he was not home but when my co-worker left I went upstairs and realized my husband was home). I told my husband what happened. He said he forgives me. We have had some marriage issues due to something he did (not cheating) and we’ve been working on our marriage. He said I did not lie to him. I told him what happened right away. The guy kissed me, I participated but it was one kiss and I stopped it.
My husband is acting like it is no big deal. But I feel horribly guilty. How can I be this person who is married and kissing someone else? I never thought I could do that and I am so ashamed.
The other person I may have to work with. I still don’t know what to say to him.
I can’t shake off the guilt. Worse, I can’t stop seeing that kiss play out in my head when I am awake or asleep. How do I stop it?