Sad and Alone
I am writing because I feel very sad and alone. You aren’t supposed to put real life, real feelings on Facebook or everyone gets upset. Its my Facebook page, I should be able to put whatever I want.
Anyways, I am just having a really hard time. I will be alone on Christmas day because my son and his family don’t want me with them. I am really struggling. I love Christmas. The thought of sitting alone hurts so much and to know people you love don’t care that you will be alone is very hurtful. I won’t get to see my grandchildren.
People say to go find something to do or be with other people. Its so hard being with other families when you are unwelcome with your own family. I know some people won’t understand but everyone is allowed their own feelings, including me.
I loved Christmas my whole life. I am just so hurt and depressed and feel so alone. I am just struggling so much. And even if my family thinks this is my fault (Its not all my fault, but I always take some responsibility), doesn’t make it okay to hurt someone like this. I don’t know how I will get through this time.
Please don’t criticize, you aren’t in my shoes, my head or my heart.